You were right old friend - because if anything, this time especially - it'd be me and not anyone else..
but I want it, not only because of the obvious beauty
but because there's things that need to be fixed and I need to work for this or risk being forever lost and stuck in the recesses of self conflict.
I can't go on with the cycle and I cannot leave a scar because this time I don't want to just stay the same.
I need to grow. I need to learn.
....and if I hurt myself in the process - if I fall, bleed or if I were to lose myself once more
this time is different.
This time will be worth it.
Because we all need something to die for
to make living so beautiful.
...Happy Birthday to You, Jess..
...Happy Advance Birthday to You, Kimmy...
...May All Your Wishes Come True...
...Enjoy This Special Day of Yours...
...Take Gd Care...
⥠you and i both loved